OCD Youth

chanel189 said 1 month, 3 weeks ago:

Well, what a ride I had. I got medically diagnosed with OCD about 6 months ago now. I have sort of always knows I have it, but I got diagnosed a little time ago. I have extreme intrusive thoughts. Wether they are sexual, Frightening, about myself, my family, friends, anything, they are there very often. Some people tell me to fight them away whilst others tell me to let them be there, so I have not got a clue what exactly I should do. I have pretty bad rituals too. I am currently battling a ritual which tells me that if I don’t hurt myself, I will never get better. I am constantly doing things until it feels ‘right’. My most constant compulsion it so jump on the side of the bath before the toilet finishes flushing. I have now broke my sink twice because it gave in from how much I’ve been doing this compulsion. I told my mum that I lent on it and it just broke, she knows I have OCD, I’m just too embarrassed to say that it was the OCD that caused me to accidentally break the sink. It really feels like it has completely taken over me, I can’t go longer than around 45 minutes without doing a ritual or compulsion. It completely ruins my day and makes me feel so horrible. Does anyone have any sort of advice?