I’m not sure if this is just me, but I often get angry over trivial things. Sometimes I can hide my anger. Other times I cant and I have to take it out on something. I MUST take it out on something.
I will be in the bathroom, adjusting my belt, and then bending over. Then i get mad because the belt falls off my pants. I need to express my anger. If someone hadn’t entered the bathroom, I probably would have thrown something or kicked the box.
But that i can control. 50/50, at the least. There are still the times I accidentally hurt my little brother because of the anger I end up feeling, which only makes me feel more anger as he writhes in pain, because part of me thinks everything he does is retarded and that he is a weak, crying baby (which I don’t want to think) while the other feels genuine sorrow and makes me feel like I’m the disgrace. These are thoughts I welcome (i have low self esteem)
Does anyone else feel this way or act like this?