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Topic Title: Past event pocd
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cats12345 said 4 years, 5 months ago:
Hi I really need some advice and see if anyone else has experienced this because it’s causing me alot of depression. Ok this all started with a 7 year old boy who I went to church with at first nothing was wrong until I started to think I liked him. I would get intrusive thoughts alot but then I got over it and started ignoring the thoughts more. I started noticing I liked being around him and got excited seeing him because he is a very fun person and funny. It seems weird but all the kids at the church are younger then me I’m 15 so I was used to hanging out with them. Ok so my dellema is that I am looking back at past thoughts I would have about him like me thinking I have a crush on him. Heres one thought I had I had a thought of if I had a boyfriend would he be jealous but I just brushed it off as a ocd thought. I’m also having a worry because I feel like I liked him back then like there is a feeling I got when I was around him that I ignored but what if it really wasn’t my OCD and I really like him because I had a moment when he called me pretty and got butterflies and I dont think it was my ocd. Should I be so worried? Were these past thoughts and feeling just ocd or was it me and is it bad I was ignoring these thoughts does that mean they were real. I just really need someone to help me I need someone to talk to because those past thoughts and feelings dont even seem like something I would really do but I know they are real memories.
cats12345 said 4 years, 5 months ago:
What I think is really worrying me is when I think of these past memories is the feeling I got when I thought of these thoughts and feelings I got around him like the feeling I liked him or like being around him or something..I cant tell if I’m making this feeling up or not. I look back and think that doesn’t seem like me at all but it was it was me. Am I making it a bigger deal then it is? Is ok to like being around a 7 year old. I mean i dont feel sexually like i like him just emotionally or something ugh this is killing me inside please help
moresunshine said 4 years, 5 months ago:
Hello! I hope you are feeling a bit better now It's very easy for OCD to trick you and make things seem a certain way, but what you experienced was just OCD. It's perfectly acceptable to emotionally enjoy the company of a 7 year old, and I'm sure the feelings and thoughts you experienced were because of your OCD. You're clearly distressed by what happened and have analysed every memory possible, so you're definitely not a bad person. It's just OCD. I have similar thoughts and feelings to you sometimes and I know it's scary, but it's just your mind playing tricks on you. I hope this helped