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Topic Title: Was this actually OCD?
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billieisokay said 4 years, 2 months ago:
Hello everyone.
A few months ago I had a boyfriend, and I think I had ROCD because I was always worrying if I actually loved him, if I cared for him, if I actually had feelings for him, etc. It scared me so much that I might not be genuine. I spent hours of my day researching how love should feel, why I felt this way, if I was horrible, etc. When I told my mom about these thoughts she told me, “Well, maybe you don’t actually like him.” and that statement scared me even more. But these thoughts got so loud and scary that I ended up breaking up with him because I wanted them to stop. It took up so much of my day that it wasn’t healthy anymore.
Afterwards I missed him a lot, and we even kissed after our breakup. I felt inclined not to date him again because I had already told my friends that I didn’t like him and that’s the reason why I broke up with him. Now I am looking back at this situation, wondering if it was actually OCD. After the breakup I justified to myself that I didn’t like him anymore. It scares me now because it could have been denial the whole time, and I was just a horrible person. I don’t know, it’s scaring me a lot, and I don’t know what to think.
Zoe Chater said 4 years, 2 months ago:
Hi there- moderator here!
I am really sorry to hear that you've been struggling with these thoughts and that they have taken up so much of your day! We at OCD Action and on this forum aren't medically trained so we aren't able to tell you whether you have a diagnosis of OCD, but I can say that what you explained does seem quite similar to some experiences of ROCD.
Your best option is definitely to go and see a GP with your parents if you are under 16, or without if you are over 16. A GP is able to tell you whether what you are experiencing is under the official diagnosis of OCD, and if they conclude that you do have OCD, they can offer you different forms of treatment that could really help.
Either way, I'm sure it would be really helpful for you to know and understand what you are actually experiencing, as the uncertainty and confusion can feel horrible. I would really recommend discussing how you're feeling with your parents and seeing a GP so that you can try and take steps to help you feel better with your own thoughts.
Best wishes,
Zoe