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Topic Title: I think I have OCD
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whatsup100 said 4 years ago:
Okay so this is difficult and stuff but since I was 12 I always thought I might have it. But at that age I wasn’t really struggling I just had this one weird thought that I would feel bad about. But one time when I was 14 that thought ruined me. I thought of death of family, the bad harm thought I had and it hurt me so much. The worst thing was more and more kept coming. I thought I was a creep, couldn’t sleep at all and I just had pure guilt. Then it went existential and I obsessed over that. I wondered what my problem was because I seemed to have no compulsion but now I realise it’s probably a mental thing. Telling myself it’s okay, or thinking of happy things, or making a list of why I don’t agree with the thought, or figuring it out. It’s so hard. And the worst part.. I’m alone and my mum doesn’t get it. I’m 15 now and things are okay. I’ve not had real treatment, but I’ve had some online and school counselling. I’ve had some other obsessions like being lesbian when i don’t think I am or don’t want to be, and being a psychopath. Some questions are..
Can OCD come and go on it’s own? Like some days are okay, but randomly.
Does this sound like OCD?
Can OCD be some puberty thing?
Thanks a lot
moresunshine said 3 years, 11 months ago:
Hello! I hope you’ve been coping okay recently :). To answer your first question, the severity of somebody’s ocd can be different on different days. Some days are good, when there aren’t too many intrusive thoughts or you’re able to brush them off, but of course some days are bad too! If you have a couple of good days, then that doesn’t mean that you don’t have ocd. It just means that you were able to cope better that day. I’ve never been diagnosed with ocd but, like you, it seems plausible to me that I have it, and my ocd has changed over time and also gone away for periods of time. When I first experienced ocd, probably when I was about nine, I would get intrusive thoughts surrounding numbers, but as the years have gone on it became more focused on intrusive thoughts surrounding illness and death. So it’s still likely you have ocd, even if it does change or stops for a time.
Unfortunately, I’m not qualified so can’t fully diagnose you, but what you’ve written does sound like ocd. You clearly aren’t a bad person, so you shouldn’t tell yourself you’re a creep or feel guilty
I really don’t know much in relation to ocd and puberty, but I know puberty is a stressful time which can cause the onset of ocd. I hope this helps!!