OCD Youth

cats12345 said 5 years, 1 month ago:

I really need help I cant tell if these past thoughts and feeling I were having were ocd or not. Ok there is this 7 year old boy I went to church with and I liked being around him because he was funny nice and I feel like that means I liked him I also would get thoughts like oh he looks cute and he is handsome but I think those were just ocd thoughts but I cant tell because I had a feeling when i thought of those of liking him. Also one time he told me i was pretty and i got butterflies and i dont think that’s normal right? I just had a feeling when I was around him but I cant tell what that feeling is or was. Am I just overreacting? I also would look at him and feel like I liked him or he liked me but I realized that was just my ocd. I just feel so guilty for these thoughts like I really think I liked him but the last time I saw him was a few months ago and his grandmother asked about a date I went on and I thought I wonder if he would be jealous (the 7 year old) I just brushed that thought off tho. I think I’m so worried because I would just brush these thoughts off and not pay attention to them so they must be real. I talk to my sister and mom and say it’s no big deal. I just feel so guilty and I’m so depressed I dont even brush my teeth or hair anymore I am homeschooled to and it’s so hard because I’m to stressed to even pay attention to my school work. I just need someone to talk to and see if anyones had this feeling too.