I think i am losing my mind. I have thoughts in the past, from kids who i have volunteered with, to molesting them, fondling, etc. I brushed these thoughts away, and of course 8 months later i get a relapse of kids i volunteered with in a group class. I get thoughts of taking them to an area and r*ping them, i can vividly feel my p*nis in a vagina that warm weird sensation, even though i have never had sex before or would EVER harm a child. I know the consequences and am not ready to ruin their innocence and spend years in prison for something that horrendous. But the thoughts seem SO vivid its making me ruminate and wonder if I have done anything, even got to the point where I have searched up prison terms for sex offenders even though i Know consciously i never did anything. Has anyone had similar thoughts like this?